This week was out of the ordinary week. I was actually really happy this week after hanging with other groups. I got to know other people; that I hang around this week. It made me see something In different perspective, like everyone has their own weird way. I knew people weren't all normal anyways. I wonder If I should continue going to groups to make me happy? Selfish as it sounds, but i do make others happy. The only thing I want most, Is to have a best friend to hang outside school all the time, even if she/he doesn't attend the school I go to.
Everyone seem to have an interesting life that I wanna hear about, to learn how they truly are, and heir emotions.
Read them as If I'm reading some kind of mystery investigation novel.
Life is the same, doing the same routine over and over again, every single day. Nothing has change... Next week, i have exams for 2 weeks, which will quite stress me out... even if I seem not to care, but it does...
This is all i got to say, I have nothing else, so yeah.
My truth is within me, I am not happy with who I am with, yet it shouldn't concern them. Yes, I had that choice, whether to linger with them, or to detach from them. I longed for a best friend, but i now see the people i hang with, are the wrong people to find "Best friends" in. But they will always be a friend to me and i will always befriend them.
And so i move onto someone who i find will be right, and not "dissimulate" everything. Someone that is faithful to be a "best friend" rather than someone that just wants to be "loved" by everyone to put on some kind of mask. This has perturbed me these past couple of weeks and it just sucks.
Well, i'm filled with boredom right now, and i need some entertainment.
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Today was same ol' thing. Although at lunch i went to someone else to catch up. And i hang around with Helen after school, going to Cabramatta Library for my first time, was so weird. The bathroom, i have to say "WTF?". Some kind of place where people is allowed to syringe themselves because there was a box that says "Needles here". Like, what the in world? So they knew people put liquid in themselves so they allow it? Very strange place.
xD!
Well, i'm done.
"To be, or not to be, that is the question...", Hamlet, Act 3, Scene 1, 55-87.
The soliloquy i adore.
What Shakespeare was trying to say about this soliloquy was about life and death, he isn't precisely verifying the question, but debating on life itself, and facing death as you live.
I'm not going to proceed about Hamlet, that was just to get me started on the topic about life from the famous Hamlet.
Now, what do you think life is about? Many people have different meaning to life, because everyone has their own ability to conquer their own life. There are people who are pessimistic about life, and want to take the easy way out, people who are full of life. People see life in different aspect, this is why they have different meaning for life.
How i view my life, is more of a change right now. Oh how i longed for change where i can open a door and step out to something outrageous. Something so uncommonly i've never experienced. Right now, 'tis difficult to find someone interesting to experience life with. (If my friends are reading, don't get me wrong. Hope you all understand. Although i don't tell you what my problem is, so yeah. You all are still awesome, although everyone is awesome, but still)
I wanna experience life how everyone is experiencing, be with the people that has rough times, good times etc. Although i'm quite young at this moment, but this will do, for now.
Well, wasn't that a bunch of nonsense?
It's blah this and blah that. It sometimes makes this whole life very meaningless, because maybe it is. Is life worse than hell itself? We suffer physically, mentally and such. Even if you're living the life, there's something, THAT little tiny something will eventually disintegrate. This world maybe selfish, filled with betrayal, but who really knows when they're so secretive? Maybe life sometimes isn't meant to be.
Now, what you saw here, were two totally different aspect towards life.
Well, just making my point. Have no idea why i brought up this subject, well i do. Just, yeah.
Well, you wasted your time reading this, now, make up for it.
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This is a picture by Michael Leunig. I find his cartoon pictures clever, with such meanings behind them all. Michael Leunig is a philosopher, behind all his poetry, cartoons, might be something you seek towards in life.
"Let it go. Let it out. Let it unravel. Let it free and it can be, a path on which to travel"
This goes to show that, with your experiences you've gained, learned from your past, and what you know within yourself, is to overwhelm your imagination, to broaden your life-line within your society.
If you just let those knowledge from when you were an embryo to when you're ready to set that individuality, set that all to unravel within yourself, to set the goal you've chased for, or to help you travel your pathways.
As you can see in the picture, the string that's coming from his head, is his mind that he's walking on. Leading a journey to wherever he ends up to.
Your life is a progression, it'll move onwards. You hear people saying "Move on", all these philosophy to help you lead a life, listen to them, it really comes in handy.
I must say i'm no expert on this Philosophy stuff, but i learn all this by everyone around me, it's the same as you all.
Nature vs. Nurture.
It's always been a debate, whether it's just the normal life, that nature gave to us, because we have all these experiences, or is it nurture, the people around us that influence us to be like this?
There's so many questions, no one can answer, all we can do, is seek the answers, following our own idealism.
Just remember, people may always be there for you, give you advise and information, but it's up to you that chooses for yourself.
On the 11th of March, was the day our lunch got interrupted, once again.
Some anonymous girl pranked called the school, alarming Mrs Ormen (however you spell her surname) that there was a bomb; bomb scare.
It's their stupidity-ness that they got them self into a hell lot of trouble when Mrs Ormen called the police to track the caller down. This is a rumor though, i heard it from a friend and such.
Well, here's the video, didn't record much.
Here's more random videos on this day.
Physics lesson without Mrs Brett
Lunch time
These are my friends who i hang with at lunch and recess.
